The process of “Finding one’s sense of origin & belonging; Finding ‘one’s self’ or Finding ‘one’s center” means a discovery of who I am as an individual as well as who I am in relation to my environment and others. I feel quite confident in knowing who I am, as an individual, however, knowing myself in other ways is still emerging. I think that this may take years to grasp as my relations continuously change. My initial thoughts are that in order to find my belonging in a larger context, I must belong in a smaller circle first and gain respect; “respect is an essential pillar in which good relationships can be brought about” (Cardinal & Hildebrandt, 2002, p. 21). By this, I mean that in the class environment I must find my sense of self. I think that belonging happens in smaller spaces, and then transfer to larger ones over time. In turn, in order to know myself in a large context including origins and within my country, I first must know how I belong in my family, specific classes and the teaching profession. This process of finding myself and origin (treaty walk) will continue on through this course in a way that I cannot predict.
I am a settler. I am white. I am European. I am in relation to people similar to me who signed the treaties. I am ose’ronni, a “delicate white flower person” (Vowel, 2016, p. 20). This could be one way that I name and identify myself. These terms that I use hold deeper connotations, as Vowel explains. For example, I identify as White; however, I’m not sure if I would be as comfortable being called White from others since it takes on the tone that I am being blamed for Canada’s past in which I was not directly a part of (Vowel, 2016). That being said, the uncomfortableness is part of my treaty walk, and part of reconciliation in which I, as an educator, play a vital role in. I was going to include “non-Indigenous” as another name to identify with, but I agree with Vowel’s point that this term ‘others’ Indigenous peoples by saying that I am ‘not this.’ Within my treaty walk, naming myself and the identity connotations that come with doing so are complex, so I hope to learn alongside and intertwine with these complexities.